well it has been quite the morning.
these last few weeks have been a little rough.
ryan has been stressed about work, elliot has been cutting to be what seems like 200 teeth and i have had to deal with a lot of silly little things.
we've run into pretty much every problem possible when planning our trip to nashville for next week - almost having to cancel it once and choosing to cancel it like 5 other times.
just seems like nothing is lining up right, or how we'd hoped.
we aren't able to spend as much time there as we had hoped because of work.
my old employers were nice enough to open their home for us to stay in when we realized we wouldn't be able to afford a hotel for a week.
because of that, we aren't able to have a babysitter for elliot (hello, how rude for us to do that to the people we're staying with)...
and of course, really looking forward to things - things we need - and them falling through.
and really at this point, i just have to chalk it up to satan.
we have been so homesick -
for our city and especially our friends.
and plans have fallen through, feelings have been hurt.
this trip has been something we have looked forward to since we moved...
"we just have to make it to may when we go to nashville again"
something that has kept us going when things have been really rough and really lonely out here.
i spent the entirety of elliot's first nap crying in my room.
just so broken down over this process and of course disappointed in that this trip is finally here and yet the light at the end of the tunnel has vanished.
so after i gave myself my moment,
the only real thing to do, was to pack elliot up and pick ryan up and go to in n out for lunch...
if you all could send up a little prayer for next week and my family, we could really use a break over here.
I can totally relate to the homesick thing! It sucks!!! But it will get better with time :) Sending some prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteChelsey, I know what its like to be so far away from everyone and everything.. its lonely and hard and downright depressing sometimes... It gets better I promise!! I used to count the days till Ryan was done with his phd so we could move back, now a large part of me is dreading that day! Find a church, get involved, even if its not perfect. Meet your neighbors, have a party, do what you can to meet people and immerse yourself in this life. You will find, soon hopefully, that this is a lot better than you ever thought it could be! I'm praying for you guy!
ReplyDeletelots of prayers coming your way, love. stump once told me there was no need to miss everyone in nashy, because we're all family and with each other always. I kinda laughed because i thought it was super cheesy, but it's actually really true.
ReplyDeleteyou are very much loved, and thought of and prayed for, and distance sucks, but do take comfort in knowing you have a huge family that loves you.
if there's anything I can do to help, let me know. Even if you guys want to come for a weekend away in BC, I'd be more than happy to babysit and you can have some quality time and date nights together.
love and prayers. <3
lots and lots of prayers. We've been going through something super similar and thank heavens after many prayers from many friends we're starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel, but it sucks, and I wish I lived close to you so I could be your friend (is that weird cause we've never met?.. I just feel like we're a lot alike.. ok yeah it's probably weird..sorry) I hope the trip goes wonderfully and smooth. You know things always get horrible and hard to keep you from getting to the thing that is supposed to be amazing and wonderful! You'll get there :)
ReplyDeleteHey Chelsey, I just moved back to Berkeley with my grandma this summer and I know its about an hour away from San Jose, but if you're ever up here I'd love to see you or help you out in any way. :) I'll be praying for ya'll!
ReplyDelete-Natasha
Hey Chelsey, I just moved back to my grandma's house in Berkeley for the summer and if you're ever up here, I'd love to see you and your new family. I've been reading your blog and think you guys are amazing and I praise God for examples like you. I know Berkeley is an hour away, but just wanted to let you know that I'm praying that your Nashville trip would start to pan out and you'd see God's hand moving just how He planned it to be. May His peace settle over you.
ReplyDelete-Natasha