Friday, December 30, 2011

just pretend this was last week.

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have you all been as busy as i have?
my apologies for the late 'merry christmas' wish but i just don't know what has been going on.
my mom and sister are in town now so i'm even more busy but i'll try to give this blog some tlc and post about our christmas and my birthday before i find myself too far away from the holiday ;)

Saturday, December 24, 2011

my birth story.

my mom was kind enough to write this up for me to post for today.
which is my twenty third birthday.

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Twenty-three years ago today, I had no idea how much my life was about to change.
In fact, it turned out to be the most important day of my life up to that point.
Although I had had success in life, nothing could compare to what happened that
day.

I had lost my own mother to cancer when I just a teenager, so being pregnant for
the first-time was not easy. I had no one to turn to for advice during my pregnancy.
My due date was December 25th. But on the night of December 22nd, I thought my
water broke. We were living in Laguna Beach, California, and I was set to deliver
at Cedars-Sinai Hospital in Los Angeles, a good two hours away. Even longer
in a torrential rainstorm. I was terrified on that long drive to the hospital. And
embarrassed to find out it wasn’t my water that broke after all, just a lot of peeing!
My husband and I barely spoke on the drive back.

In the late afternoon the next day (12/23), I drove to pick up our dry-cleaning, and
as I got out of the car, I heard a distinctive “pop” and fluid began drenching my jeans.
The Oriental workers at the dry cleaners became as frantic as me, and lined my
car seat with plastic wrap. I jumped back in the car and sped towards our house,
honking the horn incessantly as I pulled into the driveway. At first my husband
didn’t believe me, but as the fluid kept flowing onto our kitchen floor, he quickly
changed his mind.

When we got to the hospital, there was no room to put me in – it was a full moon,
and a lot of women delivering, I was told – so I did the beginning of my labor sitting
in a chair. By the time I got into a bed, it was time to get an epidural. My husband
was monitoring the equipment I was hooked up to, and he said I was having a
contraction. I remember replying “Contraction? I’m having a contraction?” By this
time it was the wee hours of December 24th and my doctor poked his head in, and
said it was probably going to be a long haul ahead for me. But I told him I felt like
pushing, and he decided to check my progress. He was shocked when he saw I
was at 10 centimeters. Everything happened quickly from that point on. We were
rushed into the delivery room, and I remember thinking there was no turning back
now. The epidural was still in effect, and I thought the doctor and nurses were
crazy when they kept yelling at me to “push”. “I am pushing!” I shouted back. They
went to get forceps but fortunately they couldn’t find any, so a “Nazi” nurse (a huge
woman with zero personality), laid herself over my stomach and pressed her body
against my stomach. Then the most beautiful little baby slid out and we were told
it was a girl! I looked up and saw the doctor holding her – she was still attached to
the umbilical cord that was coming out of my uterus – an overwhelming sight I will
never ever forget. We wept tears of joy. When they put this little girl on my chest, I
felt complete for the first time in my life.

We debated over names for our beauty, and decided on “Chelsey”. On the second

day, my husband was going to the nursery to get the baby and said that maybe we
should think of a different name. I said, “But we’ve been calling her Chelsey!” While
he was gone, I grabbed a “baby name” book that I had brought to the hospital, and
opened it randomly. As they came back into the room, my eyes fell upon the first
name I saw and I said, “Hi, Minnie!” He said, “Fine, she’s Chelsey,” but we’re going to
spell it with a “y”.

Chelsey was, and still is, my best Christmas present ever.

Happy Birthday, Chelsey! I love you.

Monday, December 19, 2011

what.

it is 5:10 pm.
i have already eaten dinner and elliot has been asleep, for the night, for 40 minutes.
the last few days have been...strange?
first, we left elliot with a babysitter on friday night for the first time.
so that we could go to ryan's work's christmas party.
i wrote out this whole thing about how he has started flipping onto his stomach in his sleep and will get stuck and will scream so make sure you go in there so he doesn't smother himself and die...
or how he will probably wake up 8 times before we got home 3 hours later so just replace the pacifier.
he is teething, and BAD. 
he is miserable to be around 80% of the time.
isn't sleeping well and soaked in drool.
elliot went to bed that night at 515 pm...earliest ever - until tonight.
he didn't wake up ONCE...
until 4:40 am to nurse.
WHATTHEWHAT?!
not one peep...
he was checked on twice and didn't even flinch.

then saturday i was treated to a pretty nice shopping spree while ryan watched elliot at home for a few hours since i had endured teething hell for two days and was going crazy.
we then had these wonderful plans to drive up to san francisco in the afternoon and walk around...
go to union square and look at the christmas tree, get hot chocolate and watch the ice skaters.
first off...
we were in traffic trying to get over the bridge for over an hour.
we then drove around for 50 minutes trying to find parking.
and once we did, i strapped elliot in the ergo and he sobbed because of the MASS AMOUNTS OF PEOPLE EVERYWHERE AND BUMPING INTO US and the MASS AMOUNTS OF SIRENS CONSTANTLY.
my good friend from high school waited for us for an hour to get to that damn ice rink.
we looked at the lights for all of three minutes and then tried to find somewhere to eat.

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anyway...
elliot didn't sleep at all that night, nor did he last night.
ryan is out of town for a few days with work...

oh, i forgot to mention that i noticed our tree was dying, so last night we had to take all the ornaments off and nail some holes in the bottom and then redecorate and i'm pretty sure it didn't help.

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needless to say,
i'm ready to get through this funk.
once ryan gets back he has a few days off and then it's my birthday and then it's christmas and i'm just ready to relax.
to drink champagne and take a bath.
but for now...let's just pray elliot sleeps...

Monday, December 12, 2011

six months old.

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well it's here.
six months.
and all i'm doing is crying over it.
i have had my baby for half a year.
and it has gone by way too fast.

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elliot now can sit up mostly unassisted.
he lunges forward and tries to crawl, which is really him flailing his legs and arms with his belly stuck on the ground.
he is a master at eating solids.
he loves to drink out of a grown up cup and if i'm drinking water, he reaches out towards it and opens his mouth.
he makes the cutest squeals and laughs constantly.

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he loves:
hanging by himself in his crib before nap time.
bouncing around.
bath time.
real food.
pulling owen's hair.
watching owen.
seeing how loud he can yell.
making us laugh.
going on walks.
going to church.
other babies.
mommy singing to him.
people with white hair.

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he isn't a fan of:
us ignoring him.
owen barking.
us play fighting.
not feeding him fast enough.
not being able to crawl.
not being able to grab something he wants.
accidentally rolling from back to tummy in his crib.

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every day elliot is different.
babies are so delicious.
he has made our family one unit.
it's like he has always been with us.

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elliot has made us better people.
we are better to those around us and better to each other.
God's greatest gift to me, hands down, is Elliot Gray.

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i was especially emotionally when i made this video of him.








Sunday, December 11, 2011

elliot.

i never understood the whole "cry because your baby is getting older" thing,
because i really haven't cried much since elliot was born.
other than a massive melt down 2 1/2 months ago, after which i promptly started a low dose anti-anxiety med...
but tonight,
on the eve of elliot's 6 month birthday.
i am a mess.
i thought about rewriting his birth story...
would you be into that?
i just finished his 6 month video and i can't watch it without crying.

where did my baby go?
what i wouldn't do to go back to those wrinkly old man legs, his soft newborn skin, him sleeping on my chest.
i know there was a lot of struggles, a lot of long nights back then.  
but sitting here now, 
i can't remember most of them.
i just want to bottle him up and freeze time.

soon he will no longer be a baby.
soon, he will be crawling, walking, talking...

soon, he will be a toddler.
he already isn't the little baby that needs you to support him when you hold him,
or one that will let you rock him to sleep.
he supports himself when he is sitting or when you are holding him.
he puts himself down to sleep.
he lets you know if he doesn't like something.
HE COMPLAINS.
he laughs and squeals.

yes, there is so much good here now.
and it is true what they say - it just keeps getting better.
but my heart aches for my newborn.
my heart aches for the reality of how fast time really does go by,
even if you tried to soak up and enjoy every moment like i did.
it still moves.


i don't want it to move.

nursing mama: drea

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Breastfeeding-- as challenging and as painful as it can be is worth it. Nothing will ever be as natural, chemical free, and healthy for a newborn baby.

thank you drea for being a part of this!  drea writes one of my favorite blogs, read it here.  she is a wonderful vegan mama and her recipes for her daughter are so inspiring! 

if you are/were a nursing mother and would like to share a photo and a few words please email me at: miss.chelsey.meyer@gmail.com

who is the cutest baby in the united states...

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it's you champer damper. it's you.
reference the video below:

Saturday, December 10, 2011

ebay baby.

i am cleaning out my closet ya'll.

here is the first round of ebay sales.

i will ship anywhere and will combine shipping if you win multiple items.

so cheap! so cute!

EBAY.

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conversations with elliot part deux.

wishlist: baby

i'm sure elliot will be spoiled his first christmas, but here is a list of things i would love for him to have:

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Friday, December 9, 2011

wishlist: home

as i have mentioned, we still need a ton of stuff for our place.
here is my dream wishlist.
some of these things i had previously sent to family members, so here's hoping they show up under my tree!

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