23 weeks.

23 weeks:

dear baby,

you are a wiggle worm!

you move so much and so often that sometimes i convince myself there are two babies in there.

i seriously don't know how you do it!

also, your dad has put the thought in my head about "what if he comes out a girl"

so now i'm thinking you might magically become a girl and come out with a twin...

geez.

we ordered your crib this week and it should be here any day!

your room is slowly coming together and your daddy and i have spent a lot of time sitting on the floor going through all our old stuff (with owen too) to make room for all the stuff you will bring into our home.

i feel like i am growing a lot,

my tummy is always so tight and i look bigger every day.

and now i can feel you almost all of the time,

the other night at dinner you wouldn't let me lean forward over the table to eat because you kept pushing your whole backside against my stomach so i had major discomfort if i leaned.

but i love feeling you and watching the ripples on my stomach when you kick and punch me and i know i will greatly miss these moments of just you and i when i have to share you with the rest of the world.

xo

HOTLANTA

ryan and i took a little overnight road trip to atlanta to meet his parents and pick up some furniture for the babe at ikea this week.

also i went into an h&m for the first time.

it was so nice to get away for a little bit and spend time together,

especially with his working schedule being insane and i had been picking up ridiculous babysitting hours.

anyway,

we filmed parts of our trip and i threw together a little video of it.

enjoy.

{disclaimer: i did not hurt myself or the baby when i jumped onto the bed}

22 weeks.

dear baby,

you have grown so much this week, i can just feel it.

i almost always am feeling some part of your kick, punch or squirm around now

and it always feel like my stomach is about to rip open it's so tight.

your daddy and i got some of your furniture for your room this week and i'm so excited to start putting everything together for you.

there is still so much to do before your arrival and it's scary how fast these weeks just fly by,

oh well, i know we wont feel ready for you but we will be.

xo

our V day.

i must say,

yesterday was a pretty good day.

i woke up energized for the first time in a long time,

and it was absolutely beautiful here in nashville.

i wore a long dress and a sweater and spent time outside at the dog park with my pup.

i got a ton of groceries at trader joes expecting it to be about $100 and it was only $60.

ryan got a raise at work.

it was great.

ryan made a "feast" for valentine's day which included this amazing salad with apples and quinoa in it.

my favorite pineapple pizza in the shape of a heart,

m&m's,

and crescent rolls haha.

it was a really good night.

ryan also surprised me with some pretty great gifts,

like a mani/pedi and a coupon for whatever anthropologie dress my heart desires.

i think we all know which one i'll pick

:)

hope your day was just as wonderful!

xo

dear valentine

i have always loved valentine's day,

especially when i was younger.

picking out a box of valentines with my mom at the grocery store and copying the class list to each one.

i loved exchanging them.

although i think you should always live like it's valentine's day,

be sweet to each other today and say those things you have been wanting to.

also, on facebook this morning i posted how i think it's weird for married couples to say happy valentine's day to each other over facebook and i got some slack - from those who wished it.

i just think there are some things that should stay personal, the whole world doesn't need to see that you said happy valentine's day to your sweetheart and especially if you haven't said it in person yourself.

and if you have said it in person, purchased them a car, an island, a 5k diamond ring, and then posted it on their wall, then you shouldn't care about what i think, now should you?

also, how many times do you need to say happy valentine's day to someone...

if i woke up to ryan wishing me it in person, then giving me a card saying it, then calling me from work saying it, texting me saying it and then posting it on my wall...

give me a break.

anyway,

enjoy the extra love you should be receiving today.

and make someone else smile!

xo

21 weeks.

thank you guys so much for your comments and thoughts about my mom.

she had her surgery last night and my sister updated and told me that they got everything and she looked pretty good inside.

i haven't talked to her yet, it was late and when my sister went in to see her in recovery i guess she was "snoring louder than ever" and my mom is a SNORER. haha.

hopefully i'll be able to talk to her sometime today.

anyway her is this week's baby post.

{update: they didn't get everything out, the left the tumor behind her liver because she started bleeding badly when they messed with it so it's still in there.}

21 weeks:

dear baby,

did i mention we know your name?

we do, but it's staying a secret until you come out.

we have had your first name for a while now and it's almost like you named yourself - another reason why i thought you would be a boy.

you are kicking and hiccuping and flipping around more than ever,

and my neck and back are hurting more than ever as well.

you also have me practically starving every two hours so i have been eating a lot more and you are definitely getting bigger, as is my butt.

xo

update

midwife confirmed that i am not to worry,

things are a-okay but i should take it a little easier.

if you will...

say a little prayer for my family tonight,

i'm showing weird symptoms of premature labor that my doula was a little concerned with.

waiting to hear back from my midwife -

looks like i may just have to quit that job and kick my feet up for the rest of the pregnancy.

also,

my mom goes into surgery thursday for three new cancerous tumors to be removed.

please pray for the surgeons and for her.

that the surgery will have no complications and that her recovery will be quick and painless.

thanks and love.

xo

sick day.

as i previously stated i'm battling a bad cold, which has mostly just lingered the last few days but seems a lot worse today, so i called out of work.

ryan was sick all last week when he was out of town with a cough which has now turned into the same kind of cold that i have.

he went into work this morning and then surprised me and came home at 10 am because they made him leave because he "looked like crap"

haha.

it's been nice to have him during the day since he works seven days a week and is always traveling,

i never see him at 10 am.

so here is to having a sick day together!

i made him pick us up the BEST thai food in nashville.

seriously sooo good,

everything is cooked perfectly and is fresh.

i had sweet and sour tofu...duh.

and he had his usual pad thai.

i'm planning on using the rest of the day to finished up some house stuff that i need his help doing,

but he can't seem to break himself from the hour long programming on nicki minaj music videos on tv right now.

i can support that crush because i also have a crush on her.

xo

20 weeks.

what a busy week,

we're still trying to settle in to our house and it's slowly coming together.

i'm battling a bad cold today so i'm staying home from babysitting and maybe i'll get a chance to take some photos of the finished parts of our house and put them on here.

maybe i'll use some time to work on that book i started so long ago and have neglected.

here's to a productive sick day.

20 weeks:

we're halfway there sweet baby.

your daddy and i picked out your name, for real.

well, we had your first name since i was in the beginning of my pregnancy

{another reason i knew you were a boy, it was like you named yourself},

we originally planned to wait until you arrived to name you but this one is heavy on our hearts and feels so right.

but,

we're keeping it a secret until you do show your face.

i'm feeling you move more and more and i can now make out certain body parts you push against me.

it's so strange, but so wonderful.

and i knew last night when your daddy had his hand on my stomach feeling you kick,

that we will both really miss me being pregnant.

we'll miss these small moments of getting to know you.

i just can't wait for you to come though.

i wish it was june now so badly.

xo

swimwear.

baby m's first swim trunks.

wont he be so cute :)

you know i need someone, help.

i started babysitting three times a week and it's really hard.

he is only 8 months old and extremely heavy.

he is just learning how to crawl and basically demands your attention at all time.

not to mention he lovesss to scream my ear off for the majority of the time he is awake.

you already know i have back problems but they have left me helpless by the time i get off work.

i have the worst headaches and neckaches to the point where i'm almost crying on my drive home.

not to mention all the weight he puts on my stomach.

i was planning on working until may but i think it might have to be sooner than expected.

i just don't know what to do,

we need to money but is it worth it if i'm miserable (therefore hurting the baby).

this is my only pregnancy where i wont have a kid with me at all times.

i'm not resting enough and i'm definitely not exercising enough.

basically it is turning out to be nothing like i had wanted...

{i wanted to be exercising and resting and WRITING and reading and doing yoga)

and now i hardly have any time for it.

on my days off i'm picking up all of ryan's errands on top of mine and on the weekends i basically just do all of our laundry and clean the house.

leaving no time to just sit and rest and be in my pregnancy.

help?

feelin generous anyone?

how perfect would this dress be for a pregnant woman?

anyone feeling like giving me a generous gift?

no, ok...

{but seriously}