today.

i am exhausted.

this morning we dropped ryan off at the train because i had an appointment with my new orthodontist.  we came home, elliot went down for his first nap and i ate breakfast and got ready.

we then drove the 20 minutes to their office and were 20 minutes early for our appointment but as was my dream, they took us back.

elliot sat on my lap on the chair and flirted with everyone, stared mindlessly at the flat screen tv playing "wall-e", and fussed when i took my index finger out of his mouth.  he giggled when i had his back against my chest and they dropped the chair back, and eventually, i dumped him on the poor receptionist so that i could get x-rays, molds, and new brackets put on/tighten them. 

we were there for over 2 hours and elliot never cried once,

which is surprising because i knew he had a poop.

he passed out in the car.

now he is fed and asleep and i just ate oatmeal because these braces be so tight.

my house is a wreck

our car is a mess

i am so tired

i clean our house every day

somehow it gets messy in no time

we need a dresser

we need a bedframe

i don't want to clean today

we are getting our christmas tree tonight

i am so tired.

with ryan working crazy long hours, elliot hardly sees him.

but in the evenings when ryan comes home elliot is the sweetest.

he does a falcon screech and throws his arms back in excitement once he realizes daddy is home and will only let ryan hold him, but just stares at me the whole time with the biggest smile.

and even if it's passed his bedtime and he is tired, he wont fuss, he just wants to sit with daddy.

so sweet.